Cycle pala

 Inaatake na naman ako ng lungkot. 

Medyo ikinatuwa ko naman sa aking sarili na na-identify ko agad siya. At naisip ko, regular pala talaga itong darating. Parang may season o buwan o linggo na magpaparamdam ito sa akin.

Nauumay ako sa aking ginagawa. I don't give my best na sa current projects namin. Sa iba ko pang ginagawa at sa pamilya. Parang laging secondary energy lang ang ine-exert ko. Ang dami ko kasing ginagawa talaga. Ang tendency ko ngayon ay lalong mag-aksaya ng oras. Parang I refuse to get things done. Ang weird, ano?

Then I suddenly realized kung ano siya. 

Kalungkutan.

Same thing na umaatake sa akin from time to time. Yes, kalaban itey. Kalaban na predictable, so bentahe sa akin ang nature niya. Matutukoy ko ano ang mga puwede kong gawin. At mauutusan ko ang isip na ilihis ang tuon sa nananaig na damdamin.

I have to do something new. Iyan ang gamot ko sa sakit na ito. 

Lately, naglalaro ako sa cellphone ko. As of now, nasa stage 300 something na ako. Ang goal ng laro ay mapagsama-sama sa isang test tube ang magkakakulay na liquid. 

Nagbebenta rin ako ng mga gamit sa Facebook Marketplace. Mga gamit nina Dagat at Ayin, laruan,  costume, damit, libro, punda. Nakatatlong benta na ako. So far, so good. Maayos ka-deal ang mga utaw. Dalawang Imus, isang Caloocan. Mga mudrakels like me. Nakabenta rin ako ng ilang gamit kay Incha. Ibinenta niya sa Mindoro. Ang key pala sa FB Marketplace ay basta i-post mo lang kung ano ang ibinebenta mo. Huwag umasang mabebenta agad. O may sale ka agad. Ang importante, active ang post mo. Isang araw, may magpi-PM na lang sa iyo. Iyon na.

Nagde-declutter na kasi ako ng mga gamit dito. Sikip na sikip na ako sa bahay na ito. Nasusuka na ako sa dami ng gamit. Nasusuka na ako sa saradong mga pinto at bintana.

Sabik akong lumabas. Although purposeful ang lagi kong paglabas. Kung walang tiyak na pupuntahan ay sa bahay lang talaga ako, nag-iisip ng dahilan para lumabas, hahaha! 

Gusto ko uli mamasyal. Saan kaya magandang magpunta? Sayang at di ko mabitbit ang mga bata.

Bukas, maglalakad-lakad ako. Baka subukan kong magbisikleta sa Roxas Boulevard. May libreng bisikleta doon. Loaded nga lang ako. Biyaheng Panulat sa buong umaga, tanghalian sa opisina. Pero libre ako sa hapon. 

Nagkyutiks ako kahapon, kamay at paa. Naglinis ako ng cupboard kahapon. Nagpunas ako ng mga cabinet ni Papa P kanina. Saka kaunting hagdan. Nag-jumping rope ako. Ang hirap naman. Ang ikli ng jumping rope.

Gusto ko pala ang routine na kape ako sa umaga. 

Natatawa ako sa kabalintunaan ng aking sitwasyon. I married Poy for who he is. Consistent. Very stable ang damdamin. Priority ako at ang pamilya namin. Hindi nagbago.

E, iyon din ang reklamo ko. Ako, hindi rin naman nagbago. I always want something new. I am always spontaneous. Biglaan ang mga bagay-bagay. Buhay ako kapag ganyan. Feeling ko kasi, lagi akong pinapaboran ng langit. Kapag nagpaplano, mas lalong di nangyayari o may pangit na ending. 

So, paano kaya ito? Baka ikamatay ko ito, a? Hahaha! Putcha. Ang weird, ano?

Nagtitingin pa rin ako ng sasakyan: Jhun Dominguez, MRZ Trading, 888 Cars, Sir Bags, NGT Trading, PS Bank repo, Security Bank repo. Pero ang reality, hindi ako makakabili. Dahil takot ako sa utang at wala akong sapat na cash para makabili ng sasakyan, kahit man lang ng 2nd hand. Isa pa, na-realize ko, lahat ng sasakyan ngayon, garahe lang. Minimal na talaga ang biyahe-biyahe. So, bakit ako bibili ng sasakyan namin ngayon, di ba? 

Isip ko ay inegosyo. But I already know what will happen to me. This will take me away from my kids. Tiyak na lagi akong wala sa bahay! Hahaha! Baka naghahatid ng goods, nagbebenta, etc.

Pero kailangan talaga akong magkaroon ng bagong danas.

Either sasakyan or property! O kaya magbenta ako ng mga ganyan. Maiba lang ba.

Sa sobrang buryong ko, piniem ko na si Vins. Kako ay ituloy na namin ang stock market 101 talk ko. Nag iisip pa ako ng pamagat ngayon.

I will be really busy na pala. Setyembre na. Kailangan na naming maghanda for Performatura!

Ano ba iyan? Iniisip ko pa lang ay napapagod na ako.

Paalam!

Jamir Garcia obituary

 Jamir Garcia 

(September 5, 1978-November 26, 2020)

OPM singer, Vocalist, and Metal Rock Musician

Known for his raspy voice that complemented the rap metal music of their band Slapshock,  frontman  Vladimir “Jamir” Salenga Garcia was born in Pampanga on September 5, 1978.  His father initially disapproved of Jamir's pursuit of a career in the music industry. Jamir even had to take and finish an auto mechanic degree at Samson Tech to please his father. 

Jamir cited Korn, Limp Bizkit and Deftones as some of his strongest musical influences.

Consistently kind and soft-spoken, Jamir Garcia was also known for his tattoos and piercings.  He had more tattoos all over his body than any other rocker, with his right ear pierced as big as one-peso coin. He had tattoos on his neck, arms, tummy, back. The address where Jamir stayed during his younger years was honored on his body: #66-B, Gumamela St., Roxas District, Quezon City.

Jamir credited his big brother Chris Garcia (a renowned tattoo artist who used to work as a researcher at NASA and now runs his tattooing business in Virginia Beach, USA) for the artwork inspired by the style of Botong Francisco. Because no tattoo artist would do it on him, Chris himself did the tattooing of his legs. Their New York-based brother Sonboy is just as heavily-tattooed.

Jamir joined the Slapshock as lead vocalist in 1998. With his stage presence and showmanship, he led the band to its niche in the local rock music landscape, with their kind of sound that meshed hip-hop and metal. Their live shows were always jampacked.

Slapshock released songs that became a hit, like “Agent Orange," “Cariño Brutal,” “Langit,"  “Salamin,” “Luha,” "Sigaw," and “Anino Mo” among others.  The band's songs express Filipino sentiments. Jamir once described their process of creation and work: “Being from a Third World country, I’m in touch with the people’s angst and anger. We’ll go on writing about things that affect our daily lives— love, hate, struggle.”

The band had won NU Rock Awards for Artist of the Year in 2001 and 2002. Their album "Project 11-41" was also nominated for the Awit Awards’ Album of the Year.  It was a slick and melodic nu metal album-- and arguably their best effort... It had tracks that proved to be classics such as “Get Down,” “Queen Paranoia,” and “Numb,”  according to ABS-CBN writer Rick Olivares. 

Jamir performed the official theme with international Filipino musician apl de ap for the historical biopic “El Presidente” in 2005. 

Hardworking and professional, Slapshock was the ambassador of the clothing brand Dickies. It was also among the main and regular bands of the Red Horse Beer Pambansang Muziklaban.  Slapshock was the first Filipino band to perform at the Dubai Desert Rock Fest in 2008.

In the band's 20th anniversary, they  experimented with an album published in a different media. It was called Atake, and they  marketed it as a “USB-only release” accompanied by a free bandana (Jamir’s trademark head gear, a popular item among their fans). The band performed around the world (Malaysia, Sarawak in Borneo, Dubai and several East Coast USA cities) as part of its 20th-anniversary tour.

Slapshock’s manager Kevin Arnedo shared Garcia’s propensity for working under pressure. “During the 'Carino Brutal' EP recording, Jamir spent a whole day writing the lyrics. Then in the evening, he was laying down his vocal tracks.”

Inspired by the sacrifices of medical workers, policemen, and volunteers during the COVID crisis, Jamir wrote a new song called “Sana Pag Gising.” He said in the Inquirer,  “The song started nung mga nakikita ko yung frontliners na hindi man lang nila mayakap ang mga anak nila so, yung song ay nasa perspective ng isang frontliner at tungkol sa hirap at dasal nila– na sana pag gising tapos na ‘to lahat.” He passed the song to his bandmates while they are all in their respective quarantines. Jamir together with Lee Nadela (bass guitar), Lean Ansing (guitar), Jerry Basco (guitar) and Chi Evora (drums) took advantage of digital technology and collaborated separately in their respective studios/homes– sending audio and video files back and forth until “Sana Pag Gising” came into reality.

The group disbanded in October 2020. Over the course of its 23-year career, Slapshock released seven full-length albums through PolyEast Records (formerly EMI): 4th Degree Burn (1999), Headtrip (2001), Project 11-41 (2002), Novena (2004), Silence (2006), Kinse Kalibre (2011), and Atake (2017).

A father of five, Jamir passed away in their home in Quezon City in November 26, 2020.  He was 42 years old.

Callalily lead vocalist Kean Cipriano thanks his friend,  “I have the utmost respect for this person. He wasn’t just a skillful musician. He accorded me respect, which I didn’t readily get from other artists, especially when I was starting out... I remember, one time while we were eating together at an airport, he told me, ‘Don’t be afraid to turn down offers that aren’t worth your value, because bigger and better things would surely come later. Don’t ever compromise your value.’ “I knew that it wasn’t just a business advice, but a life advice. And it’s something I carry with me until now.”

Richard Manabat obituary

 Richard Manabat 

Agosto 12, 1971- Setyembre 2, 2021

VLF Actor at Performer sa Teatro, Pelikula at Telebisyon

Propesyonal. Walang attitude. Life of the party. Ito ang mga salitang ipinanlalarawan ng mga kaibigan at katrabaho ni Richard Manabat sa kaniya.

Ang Kapampangan na si Richard Manabat ay isang versatile na aktor sa teatro, pelikula at telebisyon. Siya rin ay isang fight director. Nakatulong nang malaki sa kanyang ginagawa ang pagiging chief instructor sa Aikido Brotherhood Club at pagiging guro ng arnis at judo.

Ayon sa anak ni Richard na si Vermont, teatro ang naging dahilan kung bakit minahal nito ang sining ng pag-arte. Si Richard ay bahagi ng dulang Noli at Fili Dekada Dos Mil ni Nicanor Tiongson, sa direksiyon ni Soxie Topacio (2015). Di matatawaran ang pagganap ni Richard sa Mga Eksena sa Buhay ng Kontrabida, isang dula ni Dustin Celestino sa Virgin Lab Fest ng Sentrong Pangkultura ng Pilipinas. 

Regular din siyang aktor ng Sandbox Productions, Inc., Regal Films, at PETA (Philippine Educational Theater Association).

Ayon pa rin kay Vermont, panonood ng pelikula at serye ang bonding nilang mag-ama, "at kung minsan ay mayroon kaming notes sa harapan namin. Sa kadahilanan na ikikritiko namin ang pinanonood, kung ano man ang nakita naming maganda at mali sa perspektibo namin, isusulat namin ito, hahanapin at magdidiskusyon kami kung ano ang ugma na shot, acting, lighting at iba pa."

Ganito kaseryoso sa kanyang sining si Richard. Marami na siyang naging pelikula, at ang ilan sa pinakahuli na kanyang pinagganapan ay Filemon Mamon (2015), isang musical comedy na pelikulang hango sa librong pambata, Fallback (2017), isa sa mga pelikula ni Jason Paul Laxamana, Mina-Anud (2019), Utopia (2019), sa panulat at direksiyon ni Celestino, at bilang Commanding Officer ng  Mindanao (2019) sa direksiyon ni Brillante Mendoza.

Si Richard ay isa sa mga aktor ng The Travel Teleserye ng GCTV Cignal, at A Love to Last ng ABS-CBN. suki rin siyang performer sa mga programa at show ng GMA-7.

"Kayo ang kayamanan ko," ito ang turing ng ulirang ama na si Richard sa kanyang maybahay at tatlong anak.

Pumanaw siya noong Setyembre 2, 2021 sa edad na 50 dahil sa COVID.

Nagpupugay ang mandudulang si Celestino sa husay at kabutihan ni Richard Manabat, "Huling tagay para sa iyo, kaibigan. Para sa iyong mga di malilimutang karakter, para sa matatalas na bato ng linya, para sa lahat ng tinakot mo bilang kontrabida, para sa lahat ng pinatawa mo't pinaluha sa entablado at pelikula, para sa buhay na nagmula sa gulo, pero nauwi sa kabutihan at kabuluhan."